Not Posing Vs Posing
I was inspired by this post (http://baretobush.tumblr.com/post/62913266101/the-reality-of-nude-photos-alright-so-this-is-a) so I decided to do some quick selfies of my own. The top photos represent me not posing (meaning that I am just relaxing. No model moves going on what-so-ever.) the bottom photos represent a pose that I would do at a shoot. See the difference? In the posing photos I focus on elongating my body, finding a flattering angle and sucking it in.
Being considered a “full figured” model I feel a lot of pressure to look skinner in my images. I don’t want my rolls to hang out all over the place when I’m doing a shoot. That’s where posing comes in. After doing 200+ shoots I know which angles look good on my body and which don’t. I know which one’s will make me look larger and I know which ones will make me look skinny. There’s a difference between posing and not posing. I think part of the reason why so many people are insecure with their bodies is because they always see the ‘posed’ pictures and think that’s how someone is supposed to look 24/7. It’s not.
I’m not going to lie, at times I’m still insecure about my body and how it looks. I still look at the “skinny” models and think “Damn, if only my body looked like that I would be booking so much more work.” I don’t like my rolls and extra flab. I had second thoughts on posting this because then my rolls and extra flab would be out there for everyone in the entire world to see - and I didn’t know if I was secure enough to handle that.
But here goes.
I’m hoping that someone who feels insecure with their body can see this post and realize that models are just like everyone else. They’re people too and they have rolls and flaws just like everyone else does. And I hope, for myself, that this will help me to become more secure in my own skin.
(Just as an aside I’ve worked, and continue to work, as a full-time freelance nude model. I get paid to get my picture taken. Sometimes I still can’t even believe it myself. I’ve been modeling now for 5 years.)
P.s. I guess I should also mention that the photos have been taken right off of my laptop camera. No photoshop/lightroom/editing of any kind.